tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2046289730662138442024-03-06T15:02:50.707-05:00A New MeBecoming the Me I Want to Be.. One Step at a Time!Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.comBlogger361125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-89349538366123747732019-01-08T16:56:00.000-05:002019-01-24T17:01:06.688-05:00Feeling LostThe past few days have been a blur, but the hardest ever. I never want to plan another funeral. I feel numb, sad, lost, and so many other feelings that I'm sure most that lose a loved one experience. I just want to go back and do things differently and have more time!
I have great family and friends who have called, texted, stopped by to bring food, and just try to assure that Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-34088746762999223872019-01-03T23:30:00.000-05:002019-01-24T16:54:19.886-05:00A Day I Will NEVER ForgetI know I haven't posted in a while, I apologize. My life has been like a roller coaster not knowing what will happen at each turn.
As most of you know I take care of my mom, which is my job as well as a child's responsibility when parents age and become unable to do for themselves! It has been a challenge the past 8+ years, but we have gotten through it. The end Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-52242570566506572762018-07-30T10:35:00.001-04:002018-07-30T10:35:19.144-04:00Venting Is Good For The Soul
Dear Diary:
My biggest fear since early childhood has been abandonment. My mother abandoned me when I was four years old and I have never quite recovered.
I heard my ex husband moved to Florida and my stomach is in knots. How could he leave our son without so much as a goodbye? Does he not understand the damage that abandonment does to a person? He actually left him alone two Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13370542107563501952noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-4552406794467038392018-02-15T19:14:00.000-05:002018-02-15T19:14:22.249-05:00No Shock in Recent School ShootingI'm sitting here watching CNN as many others are today. It is horrible what took place in Parkland, Florida yesterday. Listening to interviews of students who lived through the traumatic event. Sixteen years old, Addison Jost (Addy), is talking about what transpired an she made a statement that really floored me, but didn't surprise me... She expressed that she wasn't surprised Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-64400639164412739002018-02-06T11:32:00.000-05:002018-02-06T11:32:02.207-05:00Killer Winkles
This is Killer Winkles. He came into my family in 2010 or 2011. I got him when he was a puppy, maybe 6 to 8 weeks old. I nursed him from a tiny bottle and treated him like he was human. I never knew I could love an animal the way that I love him.
My oldest son called me at work last Wednesday to tell me he had found him dead outside. He was only about 7 years old and he was in great Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13370542107563501952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-13670154908472273412017-10-05T21:23:00.000-04:002017-10-11T19:00:09.736-04:00Feeling AccomplishedThe past few months have been chaotic.. well busy! I have had a lot going on with everything deciding to break at my house to have overcome some great obstacles as well!
Most of you know that I went back to school and got my BA in IT with Web Design focus. AND most of you know that I have been stuck and not really doing anything with it since I graduated 3 years ago! However, Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-58068667926716639682017-09-26T13:45:00.003-04:002017-09-26T13:45:53.513-04:00The Good Doctor - My Review
As the parent of a child on the Autism Spectrum I like to watch movies or read books that portray autistic people. The reason I do this is so I can have a better understanding of how autistic people think. I have also gotten into reading blogs of autistic adults that share their point of view on a variety of topics.
Last night ABC aired a program called "The Good Doctor". I Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13370542107563501952noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-60263125705218745612017-09-19T11:10:00.001-04:002017-09-19T11:10:39.607-04:00An Open Letter To School Shooters
Dear teenager,
I know how it feels to be picked on in school. My middle school years were horrendous. I suffered abuse from a tyrannical step-mother and then I was picked on at school for having my hair short, or not wearing the clothes that were in style, or basically for not being a "cool" kid. There were so many days that I tried to blend into the walls so no one could see me. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13370542107563501952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-48988990308320906062017-09-14T10:37:00.001-04:002017-09-14T13:56:10.921-04:00Hunger - Book Review
I was browsing through the library a few days ago and this book caught my eye. When I began to read it, I could not put it down. Roxane Gay writes a memoir of her body and I felt she could have been writing about my body. She begins her book by stating that this story is the story of her body and it is her body's truth.
To me, she was saying that in our society fat people Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13370542107563501952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-30819432498923294382017-07-31T20:52:00.001-04:002017-07-31T20:52:41.653-04:00Becoming a Stepmom at 40
In February, my life changed! I wasn't sure how it would result in the end and my emotions were all over the place on how Life would change.
Most of you know what happened, but for those who don't I will share some quoted text from that time....
I have been married for almost 20 years, the end of this year on our anniversary. We have been together on and off since we were 14 yearsGinnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-25955776275776076122017-07-31T20:19:00.003-04:002017-07-31T20:19:43.445-04:00Sex in your 40s
Love Making after 40
Making love after you have turned 40, I believe changes! What do you think? I mean, I am sure that this probably don't relate to every one 40 or over; but I think it was different in my 20's, 30's, and now the dreadful 40's!
In the 40's, for me, it's more about that feeling of "making love". However, I am a married woman that has been with her Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-3478597050619224142017-07-02T20:15:00.000-04:002017-07-31T20:15:58.179-04:00New Roller CoasterMy Life has been a roller coaster this year, many highs and lows along the way; and another is on the way. There is a good possibility that my job may be changing very soon and NOT by choice! This has caused much stress, but also a glimmer of hope for future career I want, what I went to school for.
It's been 3 years since I graduated and I still haven't changed jobs. WOWGinnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-71804043968844494172017-06-08T16:58:00.000-04:002017-06-08T17:27:49.449-04:00Priceless Moments
There are Priceless Moments in Life, moments that will live in our hearts a lifetime! Many of these moments most people can relate, but some everyone can not. I got to experience a priceless moment today that I know I will treasure forever, because I didn't think I would ever get to.
Last year, I watched my oldest child, my daughter, walk that wonderful walk at her High School Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-85907434385040922952017-06-05T12:20:00.002-04:002017-06-05T12:20:46.164-04:00Love & Other Strange Things
So, here I go again, trying to write about what I feel.
A couple of years ago, I met a man and he made me laugh again and for that I was grateful. We began to date and he had such a good heart and treated me with such care and kindness. I kept thinking he might be my rebound because he was the first man I dated after my divorce. Oh, how he made me laugh. He told me he loved me and I criedAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13370542107563501952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-32090719665003362272017-05-17T23:01:00.000-04:002017-05-17T23:01:26.512-04:0013 Reasons Why: Season 2
Netflix's Controversial Series "13 Reason's Why" has been announced for a Season 2. Season 1 stirred up conversations and had much anticipated back lash as well!
My oldest daughter (18) binged watched the entire series over a two day period, she was hooked. She continued trying to talk me into watching it over the course of about a week. Honestly, I had not seen or heard Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-7454449107043553952017-05-13T19:37:00.001-04:002017-05-13T19:39:44.403-04:00Graduation Party Idea
Last year, this month, I was playing a graduation party. Decorations, food, family and friends all coming together to support my baby girl for Graduation from High School. Lots of parents right now are going through this bitter-sweet time as Graduation is coming all so fast. The Smiles, Tears, and Memories that accompany this special time are priceless and should be cherished Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-29966925826261899982017-05-09T14:46:00.000-04:002017-05-09T14:46:31.380-04:00Post Divorce
Life is still hard sometimes when dealing with an ex-husband. He is not seeing our son and not paying child support. We went to court recently and he and his wife voluntarily signed over their state tax return and she was livid! Instead of gloating over this, it makes me sad. Our son has asked several times to call his daddy and we have both tried and now his cell phone has been turned Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13370542107563501952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-60860646379870184522017-02-08T14:36:00.000-05:002017-02-14T14:42:48.066-05:00The Results
Phase 3: The Results
Never in my Life was I so conflicted about opening a download! All of the emotions were flowing in at once.. how would I feel if the results were that my husband had a daughter we never knew about until now? How would I feel if she wasn't his? This journey has been so much of an emotional roller coaster that I didn't even now if I wanted to know the Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-27759191182777006002017-02-07T13:19:00.002-05:002017-02-14T14:43:26.131-05:00Waiting For Results
Phase 2: Waiting For The Results
After finding out & returning home from our trip to do the DNA test my emotions were all over the place, knowing there was a chance that he could have a child older than mine and all the other things that accompanied that were so overwhelming! I decided to mail the test in by 2 day mail in order to get the results faster, some how this seemed as Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-64288677507485862562017-02-06T15:16:00.000-05:002017-07-31T20:29:00.509-04:00Is It Selfish
Is It Selfish: The "Not Knowing" Phase
Am I selfish? Am I childish? I can't help the way I feel, I just wanted things to go back to normal!
The past few weeks I have been in a conflict with myself, struggling with my flip-flopping emotions on how I truly felt and coming to terms on the reality of what is or could be... and just not sure I am there yet, or if I ever will be!
Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-44048291162240353152017-02-05T12:39:00.001-05:002017-02-05T12:39:37.849-05:00Sorry for SilenceHey Everyone!
Sorry that it's been so quiet here the past month .. So many things have transpired in my life and changed over the course of this year, already! I turned the BIG 40 last weekend among other things! 2017 has been a roller coaster to say the least! I have wanted to share so much, yet, I just wasn't able to put it all into words with all the emotions that were Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-76080080769617203512017-01-13T12:02:00.001-05:002017-01-13T12:02:25.309-05:00Social Media & Relationships (**Adult Content - Graphic Ideas and Language present**)
As I am writing this another relationship somewhere in the universe bites the dust. When did we as a society get so self involved? Why do so many young women feel their "self worth" is wrapped up in how many likes one can obtain on a picture posted on social media? Social media has been the death of a lot of decent people doing stupid things to get attention. Stop the insanity!
Have Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13370542107563501952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-40190323723162811042017-01-12T13:59:00.000-05:002017-01-12T13:59:01.038-05:00Not the Start I Envisioned Is you resolution still on track? Critics say that about 80% of people have giving up on their New Year's resolutions by now! That's surprising, considering we're only 12 days into the new year.
Personally, I didn't make any resolutions this year. All I wanted was for my family to be healthy and happy and this year to be better than the last. However, it has gotten off to a Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-77112963815308784222017-01-01T12:14:00.004-05:002017-01-01T12:14:54.732-05:00Happy New Year!
HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!!!!!!
Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-204628973066213844.post-3525440915545049482016-12-21T16:33:00.000-05:002016-12-24T16:34:33.451-05:00Christmas Tree Topper BowThis year we got a bigger tree and it swallowed our angel. So, instead of going out and buying another I decided to try something new... A Christmas Tree Topper Bow!
I watched a few video's of others making them and got an idea on what I would need to do mine. However, I did't find the amount I needed from the one I had decided to do. I just decided to cut the measurements a Ginnylandhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17734774783039010810noreply@blogger.com0